December 2010
It’s time, bitches. LETS GO CATS!!!
I swear to God @emmacatherine29 I love it when you go all Twitter crazy.
I haven’t been here in quite sometime, but I feel like I need to write.
Stress…stress is what gets me and it’s slowly beginning to take over my life again. I don’t like it, because it makes me feel unbelievably weak. I’ve been fighting these voices in my head that tell me I’m not good enough, that make me more self loathing then what I would be anyway.
I...
http://twitpic.com/3le7p2 - @missmaryduffy Well, thank you, miss. :) So are you
I fucking hate everything about life. I’m slipping, slowly but surely, I am slipping. Again.
Resisting the urge to buy more @glamourkills right now. God. It’s hard.
I love movies at 12:53 a.m.
RT @missmaryduffy: HOLY FUCK HOW IS IT ONLY 8:30?
Oh, but I do. A lot.
Day 8: Your Last Night Out in Detail
Ummmmmmmmmmm? :)
I’m not very exciting, I like to stay home. So, this is hard. I think it was when I was in Nashville with my entire family, maybe.
The night started with my cousin, Hunter, my sister, April, and I wondering around the Opryland Hotel while our parents and Aunt and Uncle were in a show. We grabbed dinner at Staks, delicious sandwiches, then took the Shuttle back to our...
Josh and Zac are leavinG Paramore. :( NO!!!
Day 7: Things you like/don't like about the way...
Things I like:
I think I have nice skin, pretty good boobs, my nose is straight and that makes me happy, my eyes are really pretty too, I think.
Things I don’t like:
I don’t really like my weight. I feel like I’m way overweight, even though a lot of people tell me I’m not. I still feel h-u-g-e most of the time.
Day 6: How you'd spend $10,000
I would donate at least half of it, if not more to To Write Love On Her Arms. I would buy a plane ticket to L.A. and I would give the rest to my extended family who needs it.
first Envy on the Coast and now a partial Paramore...
usingxmyxwords:
I don’t want to be as dramatic as to say that I can’t believe Josh and Zac left Paramore, but it really is surprising and disheartening. I really love that band just the way they were and I feel like while I will still be a Paramore fan and continue to support the band, this is just wrong. I’m sad and will miss seeing Josh and Zac. I’m so glad I was able to see them together live...
Getting brave and going to clean Aprils room for her birthday. #prayidontdie
“When the walls are closing in, don’t let them get inside of your head.”
Day 5: Weird things you do when you're alone
Hmmmm.
Well, a few Mary Duffy knows this, but I write…a lot. In the last two and a half years I’ve filled up over 100 College Spiral Notebooks. It’s kind of odd, I assume.
Ummmm, I really don’t know.
Sorry. :)
Lets be honest, shall we?
It’s not like anyone reads this damn thing anyway.
I cut myself, it’s what I do to feel better. I have a blade on my nightstand and dig it in my skin whenever I’m feeling depressed or have loads of undeserving sympathy for myself. Cutting takes away my pain for a split second. At first, the physical pain overpowered the emotional pain. But now, I feel nothing when I cut myself....
i am weak and i am sorry
I want to get my tattoos, now. #whycantibeeighteenalready
I’m breaking.
Slowly, but surely I am breaking.
Day 4: The best thing to happen to you this week
Hmm, well so far it’s been the fact that I got my All Time Low tickets and hopefully that comes with Meet and Greets or Early Entry…either will be fine.
Buttt :) It’s supposed to snow like 4 inches tomorrow, plus there’s going to be half an inch of ice. I like the snow way, way, way too much.
You can't buy happiness. But you can buy concert...
Day 3: 5 things that irritate you about the...
Lets do five for each, shall we?
Boys:
They think they can make you feel so great, then break you five seconds later without caring.
They go from girl to girl to girl, yet we’re the sluts.
They think they are far more superior than girls.
They don’t understand how stupid they really are, especially when they’re teenagers.
They apparently have no ability to actually love.
...
Day 2: A Famous Person You've Been Compared To
Ummm.
Well, someone said I looked like Angelina Jolie the other day, without the big boobs and lips?
Some people tell me I look like Miley Cyrus and that’s about all I’ve ever heard.
Can’t I just be me? :)
DAY 1: the person you like and why you like them
…taking the initiative from Kylie..
I don’t really like anyone right now. I mean, I think people are super, super cute, but I’m not really seriously liking anyone right now. Which is good, I presume. I liked the same guy for four years and constantly watched him date other people, then come to me when those relationships ended. It made me feel way not good enough and it made me...
I feel
Everything.
I take every word said to me literal, especially if it’s bad. I take everything to heart, which makes me feel like everyone in the world is out to get me.
I feel dazed, I feel confused, I feel lost. I feel like I am a burden to everyone I meet and that I don’t deserve to be loved or liked. I feel like that life is a waste on me, because I’ll never succeed in...
Bethany Dillon- Beautiful
Soooo.
I’m writing a book. I’m not totally sure why, but it’ll be phenomenal.
Trust me. :)
It'd be really fucking lovely if I could catch a...
You know what? I'm just really ready for a new...
Miracle
One of my favorite songs…
“I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive So I’m going to start over tonight Beginning with you and I When this memory fades I’m gonna make sure it’s replaced With chances taken Hope embraced and have I told you? I’m not going cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle And I’m not leaving I...
Sigh.
I’m kind of confused at the moment. With life, with everything.
School is draining me and making me feel even like a bigger idiot. My dreams are far away and I can’t seem to get enough momentum to try to start perusing them once again. I miss my best friend.
I miss being happy and not fighting demons everyday. I miss not always going to my blade when I’m depressed or confused.
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